Wednesday, August 12, 2015

I'M HERE, BUT I'M NOT REALLY HERE


I was about five years old when I began to contemplate my mortality. More accurately my death. I couldn't wrap my head around the idea of not existing. Of disappearing from this earth and going to a place called heaven. Not my body, of course, but my soul.

I didn't understand what a soul was. What part of me reflecting back in the mirror was my soul? I believed my soul was someone or something outside of myself. I don't remember why, but a voice in my head started haunting me. I'm here, but I'm not really here because one day I will die and cease to exist. This phrase haunted me for years. I can't begin to describe the overwhelming fear I felt everytime I heard it. Fear raced through my body until it was difficult to breath.

I was haunted by this phrase until I was about seven years old. I will never forget the night this fear of death faded away. It occured one night while walking home from Brownies, a  junior branch of the Girl Scouts, an organization for young girls. It was a warm beautiful autumn night. The wind was wildly blowing sweeping the discarded leaves up off the ground and into the air. It was like they came to life dancing above and around me inviting me to join in. I sensed a presence. A loving playful presence. I could hear her voice whisper, "come dance with me". Smiling broadly, I lifted my arms up high above my head and began to twirl around and about together with the leaves. I even heard her giggle, as I danced.

Soon after, I noticed I was standing in the middle of the street in front of my home. An overwhelming sadness filled my heart. I wasn't ready to say goodbye. It was then that she whispered into my mind "go swing for a while." Smiling at her suggestion, I quietly snuck into the backyard and slid onto the seat of the swing. Vigorously pumping my legs back and forth, I climbed higher and higher then suddenly stopped dropping my head back and allowing my body to go limp. At first, I gazed up at the stars then closed my eyes focusing on her loving presence wrapping around me. It was the most amazing feeling I have ever felt.

I didn't question who this presence was or where she came from. All I remember is how she made me feel. I never wanted this encounter to end. I believe she was the one who motivated me to go inside the house because I could have stayed there forever. From the reaction of my parents, I must have been outside for quite some time.

After this spiritual encounter I never felt anxiety about my death. Today I believe this spirit was an angel. Sometimes when I meditate I can see a spark of bright light dancing to the left of my peripheral vision and I can feel the same playful loving energy. As a child I referred to her as The Wind and Dancing Leaves.

Every Autumn I remember this magical experience and thank her for washing away my fear of death. We don't end, we are eternal. 




Friday, July 17, 2015

NUMBERS, NUMBERS EVERYWHERE

If you don't already have Doreen Virtue Angel Numbers 101 book I highly recommend purchasing one. Numerical guidance messages I feel are the easiest form of communication with spirit guides and angels. Of course never dismiss any innate personal meanings you believe you're receiving. The fact is we all have this inner knowing, however, dismiss it more often than not. We don't trust ourselves.

Until we're reading to trust our inner knowing, Doreen's book is an extremely helpful tool. It's a small, easy to cart around book for quick access. I don't know about you, but I'm being bombarded with numerical messages.

The numbers I keep seeing are 9, 13, and 33, however, not in that order. Thirty-three was the first number. In the book, it states I have a strong and clear connection. Further stating my call is being answered to keep praying.

The second number I received was thirteen. This number signified female masters were assisting me. They're also helping me to remain positive. Then the last number nine tells me to get to work, calling me a lightworker. Further stating I've completed all prerequisites to achieve my life purpose. It says it's time to start taking action. Even if I begin with baby steps now is the time for transition.

The funny thing is I already felt it was time to close the door on this chapter in my life making room for the next. Fear of the unknown was stopping me. The "what if's" kept closing the door on the possibility of taking the leap. The simple truth is life is full of the unknown. I suppose if we knew what our future held it would be boring.

The answers were already inside of me. We have to believe in our innate knowing. Trust it. Then let go.



Sunday, June 21, 2015

SETH SPEAKS OF ENERGY VORTEX SITES


I decided to revisit the books written by Jane Roberts about the channeled spirit named Seth. As I flipped through Seth Speaks, I stumbled upon the part where he talks about intense electromagnetic vortexes located around the world. Seth describes these locations as dimensional intersections. The point where all dimensions of existence overlap.

At these overlapping intersections, the energy vibration is heightened along with our ability to manifest and communicate with other dimensions of reality. Researching I discovered many ancient structures such as the Pyramids, Stonehenge, and Easter Island are all located on sites where the electromagnetic energy registers higher.

Evidence discovered by archeologist indicate that these sites are considered sacred by ancient peoples. These sites are where they regularly performed sacred ceremonies to the gods. Did they know about these intersection energy vortexes? If so, how did they discover them?

Today we are so inundated with external stimuli I believe we have lost our ability to feel this heightened energy. Personal experience with meditation has shown me that we can connect if we learn to shut out the many distractions of our current world.

Someday I hope to visit one of these energy vortex locations but until then I do believe we can tap into this interdimensional communication where ever we are. Below is a map pinpointing seven locations that correspond to the seven major chakras. Please leave a comment if you have more information about these vortexes. I'd love to learn more.

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Tuesday, June 2, 2015

I AM A FRAUD


Do you ever feel like a fraud? I know I do at times. Some days I show the world my optimistic self then other days the pessimistic 'life sucks' version rears its ugly head. I believe we all hide behind masks in an attempt to conceal our insecurities or perceived failures.


We hide behind a mask because we are afraid of being exposed for who we believe we are. Fearing we'll be ridiculed, criticized, but most of all rejected. Unfortunately, our attempt to conceal aspects of ourselves are futile. There is always someone who sees through the illusion, even if that someone is you.

Denying being judgmental is only fooling yourself. It's an inherent quality humans possess. We label things, events, and people good or bad, right or wrong. This behavior is judgment. Our judging opinions are created by life experiences. Created by our childhood experiences, social standing, intelligence, financial circumstance, the list goes on and on.

Our beliefs are subjective. Beliefs are a perception of what we believe is true. That is the simple truth, not our beliefs. No two people experience the world as another. We are unique. One of a kind. In our material world, this usually represents value. Unfortunately, in the views of humans this means something entirely different.

We gauge people's value base on our opinion of success. Our perception of success may be financial wealth, intelligence, or appearance. Regardless which standard, they are all fleeting illusions of physical existence. Our physical bodies are not who we are. We are spirits occupying physical bodies. I believe we choose to experience physical reality to discover who we are. If we knew the truth, judging others wouldn't exist. Success would be self-discovery.

So the next time you catch yourself judging others, stop and look at yourself in the mirror. You are judging yourself. Reflecting onto another your egos need for acceptance. When we stop judging others is when we will find ourselves. We are one.


Saturday, May 30, 2015

THEY'RE SHOWING ME VISIONS

The last year, my intuitive abilities seem to be accelerating. After my third-eye experience, it started to become easier recognizing messages although deciphering them can still be a challenge.

Whoever is sending me these images must be aware of my ignorance. Maybe they know in time, I'll figure out the meaning of these visions. My question is why are they showing me these visions? Am I supposed to do something?

One of the vision was lost souls or spirits. I watched them aimlessly roam about sensing their confusion and sadness. As I watched this movie-like scene, I felt the presence of my spiritual guide to the left of me while two other spirits stood to the right. Innately I knew they were protecting me from absorbing these lost souls energy.

I always received guidance with the number three connected to the meaning. My first impression represented lost souls in the afterlife. Secondly, lost souls here on earth. Lastly, to raise my energy, which at the time was low.

I believe this vision was showing me the importance of keeping our energy positive. The lasting effects it can have if we don't. So maybe the reason they showed me this vision is to tell others. Keep your outlook positive for our energy is creating our future.